Day 295: Fixing things you had no idea were broken

I said the above to a friend at lunch today. He's not someone I know super well, but our paths have crossed here and there over the years and I've always found him to be an unusually (for the alpha-male tech company I work for) thoughtful and kind person. His wife died quite suddenly in…

Day 197: “At Least I’m Sober.”

"At least I'm sober." I find myself thinking that so often lately--and in a natural way, not a forced-gratitude one. For instance, I've got the flu right now (don't be like me and forget, people--go get your flu shots!) and feel pretty wiped out. But in the midst of a self-pity moment today I thought…

Day 189: I Won’t Drink Sparkling Cider and You Can’t Make Me

I just cannot bring myself to drink it. That is all. I have some kind of utterly irrational yet bone-deep hostility toward the notion of sparkling cider as a substitute for champagne/sparkling wine. (I actually find it odd overall that fizzy drinks are regarded as 'festive,' as if modern humans experienced the miracle of carbonation…

Day 187: Sobriety Accumulates

My husband has a surfing buddy who has been sober for 20-plus years, and he said something great the other day about how the effects of sobriety are cumulative, even if the practice of it can be very one-day-at-a-time. (Surfers are surprisingly philosophical people--it turns out Point Break is exactly like real life, except for the…

Day 179: Farmvilleing my way through

I look back at recent posts and in some ways it feels like I'm in stasis. I'm still in my Northwest-winter funk. Work is still feeling kind of Sisyphean and meaningless. My mom's health continues to fail--her symptoms ebb and flow, but her heart is operating at about 20% of its optimal capacity. We knew…

Day 163: Well, at least there’s always a mocktail…

I'm not going to lie, life feels like kind of a slog right now and sobriety uninspiring. It's dark (like, 3:30 p.m. sunset dark) and cold in my city, I'm still feeling burnt-out at work in a way that isn't going to just resolve itself over a weekend, and I'm not having those lovely little…