Warning: Alanis Morissette Coming At You

I apologize in advance for quoting Alanis Morissette at you. I’d like to think of myself as someone who quotes Lydia Davis at you instead, and if she ever has anything fucking useful to say about sobriety, maybe I will. But in the meantime–you know that song ‘Thank You’? Where she’s telling herself to get off antibiotics and remember her divinity and whatever else? I know you know what I’m talking about–I bet we were even wearing the same raisin-colored lipstick back then, missy! Well, that line ‘the moment I jumped off of it was the moment I touched down’–as of day 16, that’s what being sober feels like to me, most of the time. So much fear. Years of it. And then the distance from there to here was just not nearly as far as it seemed.